Simple utter of words, the quick motion of touch
A brief statement, the brush of an arm
The yell, the glare, the despied remarks
Yet again they sink, seep into my bones
I cannot forget
The things I have done or will do
The effort, the panic, the crash
The words, the tears held back
Past battles relived
Attack, gash, hot burn, wound, eternal scar
The eyes that watch me
They never forgive, cannot forget
Every wrong movement
Comes to live once more
Breath short, faster it beats, Panic and Fear
They stab at the bloody wound
They laugh as they make their way through my viens
Faster and faster it beats, faster and faster it spins
The merry-go-round of Pain
Regret torments the heart too, he tickles with hurt
As the heart spins and spins
Love, Faith and Trust unable to stop the mery-go-round of Despair
They are tortured too
Slowly, slowly, it seeps into me.
The fast question, a mistaken accusation
A deep breath
I wish you knew you much it hurts...
But even if you did, would you care?
You tell me you care, then tell me you don't
I'm already so lost, must you blindfold me?
My own best friend, please don't leave me
I hate you! How could you do this to me?!
You'll be mine forever... I love you
WHY? WHY WOULD YOU DO THIS TO ME?!
All I ever wanted was to be... was nor-
Nevermind, you wouldn't understand. You wouldn't care.
I'm getting dizzy
I need you, but I need to throw you away.
I want you, but I want the old you.
Panic and Fear take a step back
I spin less slowly....
Sadness, misery, melancholy, sorrow
Dispair is still better than being numb
My thinking clears
My emotions, they still work after being abused
The scars still bleed, my mind burns from time to time
But I wont give up
You'll be back one day
Back to You
And I'll be back too.
I love you but I'm letting go.
This isn't good-bye.